Hello Goodbyes.

Hello Goodbyes, why must you come so soon, and too often? Why does it seem like there are more of you than Hellos....Why do you last longer? Why do you put a knot in my stomach every time we meet. Why must you be so difficult? This "feeling of unnameable dread" follows with you. Your sick pleasure in knowing that I know you're right behind me, though I try my hardest to ignore you. And Why is it you can creep up on me so easily, sometimes? Hellos always let me know when they are coming, yet they're often delayed...Goodbyes - though, once apparent, take so long to subdue me, and I resist them until the end - sneak up and pounce upon me when I least expect it. Though I know there is a Hello at the other side of every Goodbye it's hard to tell when exactly that'll happen. Hello sinking leaden heart.

Hello school, hello classes....Hello schedule I haven't looked over in a month...Hello rooms I don't know the location of...Hello new bus schedule that I must find out and write out. Hello anxiety, hello stress. Hello worry. Hello sadness. Hello darkness. Hello Kitty? ......Hello futile attempts to cheer myself up. Hello tears, you've been there all this time, haven't you? Before, even. You were my inspiration today. Hello interruption, Hello saves. Hello responsibility...Hello responsibility fueling irresponsibility. Hello shivers and cold in a room stuffy and unbearably hot.

Hello Pessimism, you finally caught up to me. How long until I outrun you again? A week? 2 weeks? More? How many obstacles do you intend to put in my path again I see the old ones, rules, roads, responsibility...Restriction. I ran from you but you caught up, and in one fell swoop turned me upside down. You, my immortal enemy, seized me by the the hair, dragged me to your lair, threw me into shackles without a care, and the key disappeared into thin air.

But, look, an infinitesimal pixel of optimism appears, as small as a hairline crack in a vase, but just as effective...The secret to finding the key resides in hope, which despite everything, I know I still have. Hello Resilience! What took you so long? What's that? I can't find it alone? I need help? I need Rescuing, you're right...I'm stuck. A looming authority figure blocks our hero's way with reasons of rules, roads and responsibility...Recurring Restrictions...Redundancy. Ridiculous! But look! How brave this one is, how they fight! Defeated every time, but standing back up to give it another go. Withstanding waves of wickedness, while I watch and weep...? Oh! How I will fight for that one as well! Oh Resilience! Oh Hope! How you've helped! How I thank thee! How I...but soft, what's that I hear...? What's this I sense creeping and sneaking around the room? Hello fear, you're usually the last to come, aren't you? I should have known you'd reside in this dark, dank dungeon. But I don't understand, you aren't effecting me, why are you here? I'm cold, Resilience? Hope? Where have you gone? Oh I see, Fear, you were just a distraction. You play that part perfectly.

Hello Goodbyes...we meet again. I will break free of these chains! Even now I feel them loosening, though they still hold me up against this wall. There's a light! Shining! And I can see! It isn't so dark, but I'm still here. I'll escape one day, from your dominating mistress, Pessimism. And she may catch me again, lock me away once more and keep me here, but One Day I'll Fly Away! And she'll have no more hold over me. It may take a few years....and a lot of hard work...But I'll outrun her again. And then it'll be harder than ever for her to keep me captive. I'll constantly be holding the key, and she'll be unable to steal it from me.

Hello, Goodbyes...Thank you for being temporary.

Goodbye.